
6 July 2010
My love
Journeys have a way of continuing, and we are about to embark on yet another stage of ours. If anybody is, I´m conscious of the fact that you are boarding a ship you´ve not sailed before, never navigated. I know you want to be on it, as do I; for us to sail the seven seas, with all our hearts, knowing we´ll sail a confluence of currents where excitement and apprehension flow together like cold and warm gulf streams. It creates a life-giving, nurturing mixture that is just right to sustain this journey. So far we´ve managed admirably to navigate the waves without the wind being taken out of our sails - I might even get to like cruises if they´re as enjoyable as this one...
Where did all this begin? You were going about your way quite happily, thank you very much, when this knight in shining armor popped over and turned your life upside down. Mind you, you did a good job at turning mine upside down, too... Clearly, if there´s one thing we´ve learnt over time it is that we dearly want us, change, difference, new vistas, new feelings, new challenges, less city, more country.
Even though Australia is only a day away from friends, family and life as you have so far known it, you are (willingly, I know, and sensibly without burning your bridges) entering into this new world. A world where the trees are different from the ones you are familiar with; a world where the soil and the sky look different; a world where friends and loved ones (in the most well-intentioned and loving of ways) will perhaps see you in a role that is somewhat unfamiliar to you, having lived on your own for most of your adult life, but also a role you have so far assumed quite naturally; a world in which you will be (in the hearts and minds of at least two young people who have become as special to you as they are dear to me) a carer for children (without all the evil Disney-esque connotations of the term step mum); a world in which we will discover more about ourselves, who we are, and what we want out of life; a world in which I´m sure you will feel at home but will also sometimes, as I do in Europe at times, feel homeless, because we both have un-severable affections and ties in two continents at least.
I´m also very conscious of the fact that perhaps your life will change more than mine - after all, despite the fact that we will have the best of more than one world, you are moving country, gaining a new family and moving away from the one you have just a tad further than you had so far envisaged; leaving your school in capable hands but still not directly within your field of vision; changing the nature of your work from teaching to writing; saying spatial, if certainly not temporal, goodbyes to friends, creating the need to forge new bonds and friendships: just a few factors that may provide enough challenges at the best of times. Even though you feel a strong need for such changes, they´re still a few big forks in the road; your road, our road.
I want and need you to know that I appreciate all this and I´m thankful for you being in my life, and in my three daughters´ lives; for your love and loving, understanding, willingness, dedication, and adventurousness. I will never take this for granted.
It has been, and is, and will be a fascinating journey...
´I am a sailor, and you´re my first mate...´